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[suzakuformation]

You know... it's weird. But I hate Duel Spirits and the supernatural and everything... but a bunch of the regulars we've been getting orders have been Duel Spirits... And while I hate how they look...

I dunno, they seem nice when we talk. Most of them seem to be trying to figure out the world, get a job, and...

It's just weird how similar they are to us.

Still hate that they're monsters.

Ugh. This must really sound dumb and cheesy.

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[observershikou.livejournal.com]

A lot.

I regret never being myself. Never taking many chances that were given to me to better myself. Never acting when I should have, or when it'd actually be appropriate. I regret not even trying to better the world itself for others, and I regret my rashest of decisions... I especially regret never being there for my own brother through his life. Maybe he might have turned out differently if I had... Or maybe I would have, too. Who knows.

But I have a lot of things to regret, Suzume. And it is very hard for me to not dwell on those regrets.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

Personally, even if you aren't yourself, who you are is a pretty nice guy, and I don't think me or Shiroko would give that up for the world.

And spend more time with your brother...?

[Private to Shikou]
Also, why is your girlfriend insane?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... At least I'm glad for that.

I've tried many times to spend time with him. It took me a very long time to even get him to accept me again.

[Private to Suzume]

I really have no idea... But I don't think I'm too far off that she's trying to make it true, to herself.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... Let me guess, lots of tension still?

[Private to Shikou]
It's... weird, but I slightly get what she's trying to suggest, but yeah. Crazy. I think it's called a self-fulfilling prophecy.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

A great amount of tension, yes. ... That and they give me odd glances sometimes.

[Private to Suzume]

Pretty much. But... I don't want to fall into that. I nearly did, before I realized what was going on... I was ready to snap at her, but then I realized that she might want that to happen, so she wouldn't feel bad.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... Why?

[Private to Shikou]
No, I don't think it's about feeling bad or not. I think she honestly thinks she and you are screwed.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I really have no clue.

[Private to Suzume]

But it would only make her believe it so if I either let her continue to believe it, or if I finally just snapped at yelled at her about it.

So I'm not going to.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

Weird.

[Private to Shikou]
... She has a very confusing brain. What makes up for it?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Just a tad.

[Private to Suzume]

When she's not being frustrating like this, she's a wonderful person to speak to. While she's stern so much... There are those points where she acts very sweet and happy, and it makes it feel like all of the frustration that sometimes appears, is worthwhile.