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[suzakuformation]

My mind feels so hazy. I feel so lost. Why...?

Why am I lying in this bed...

Why am I using this PDA...

I miss you...

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Private to Shikou

[mynameis-legion.livejournal.com]

I swear to god I didn't plan for this...

It wasn't supposed to end up like this...

Re: Private to Shikou

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

...No one ever plans for things like this. But it isn't your fault, that this happened... It's not your fault. It wouldn't have been expected.

Re: Private to Shikou

[mynameis-legion.livejournal.com]

We... had him. We had Darkness. We could of defeated him or forced massive setback...

And then that explosion...

And the torture...

I'm sorry.

Re: Private to Shikou

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

And I appreciate that, Mr. Adam. I appreciate the fact... That you tried to stop Darkness. That you tried to at least stall him...

Which is why you don't need to apologize about this. I put trust in your attempt, even if I didn't understand what was going on... That's why you shouldn't feel sorry about this... Not at all...

Re: Private to Shikou

[mynameis-legion.livejournal.com]

I had to be silent so Darkness didn't get too curious as to what we were doing... I used the backlash of my wish to him to defeat him...

Jesus. If I could fix her, Shikou I would... She doesn't deserve this... She was so excited to get rid of Darkness and just... relax. And be with you...

Jesus...

Re: Private to Shikou

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... I understand that, actually. The best of plans occur when no one knows... That's why I never pushed Suzume, after I figured out that something was going to happen... Just wasn't sure what.

...And I appreciate that. A lot more than you'd think... She really doesn't deserve something like this. She deserves... To actually have a normal life. To relax. To not have something like... Like what keeps happening, to her.

That's why I am still going to make sure that she gets better, even if it's hopeless. Because I'm still going to try to make sure that... That she'll get better, from this. Because she will get better... Then you won't have to feel guilty.

Re: Private to Shikou

[mynameis-legion.livejournal.com]

Yes. If we could of explained without fear... we would of. It's just... wow...

That's all she wanted. Win and return home happy, so to speak... I think she had the largest guts of all... Poor kid. So much shine and spark...

I'll feel guilty for leading her into the devil's den...

Mmm...

Think she can get better...? I can't even figure out what's wrong with her...

Re: Private to Shikou

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I understand, Mr. Adam.

That's because it was something she really wanted... Something she yearned for. Of course she would've been happy to help you. Of course... She would've been the most brave. Because that's just how she is.

It's happened, Mr. Adam... And I've forgiven you already, for it. She wanted to help.

Something is stopping her from really... Having a grip on what she knows, or should know. At least to me... That's how it seems. That's what I'd focus on..... And try to figure out how to help it.

Re: Private to Shikou

[mynameis-legion.livejournal.com]

I explained the plan to her over and over, just like I did with Masuyo and Yamimaru... god. I killed one student and mentally crippled another.

... And how do you plan to help her?

Re: Private to Shikou

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Then she understood it. It was... It was her choice. And I'm proud of the fact that... She tried to do this. That she tried to help.

... I don't know. But I'm going to figure out how, no matter what... I'm not going to let her live like this, when she deserves... Infinitely better.