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Hrm.

Secretary work at my parent's company.

Acting offer from Noriko.

Or that thing Onni posted.

I have all the time in the world and yet I feel rushed.

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... At least you have multiple opportunities, currently?

All I've been doing is the security job... ... and researching some things.

What sort of things.

And I do.

I'm just stupidly frustrated by my own indecisiveness.

Ah... Trying to build something, mostly.

I probably wouldn't be able to help with that.

I mostly just know how to build replicas of military equipment.

... Well, actually... You wouldn't happen to have any books on that, would you? Even related fields like that would help, probably.

Uh, my room has a ton of books on military equipment and some specs for stuff I probably shouldn't have?

... Don't tell me you've decided to take over the world.

No, of course not. It's just something I've gotten an idea for, that I want to see if I can actually manage it.

I'll pull out the books in the living room then for you to read.

Thank you, Suzume.

Not a problem.

Don't feel any major rush to answer. You can decide whatever you want, biases aside.

Ugh.

If only there were three of me.

Don't say that too loudly with Noriko about, you know...

Eh. I probably deserve it at this point.

My suggestion, pick the top two choices off of your head.

Three makes you too divided to make a proper assessment.

After that, if you keep having trouble, either flip a coin or have someone else pick for you.

Though, were you always this indecisive.

Not until recently, no, I guess. But we both know why.

It's just. I feel split between my family and doing something more hedonistic.

My suggestion?

Take the TV show job and/or apply as a Duelist for your family for name brand.

Hell, do both.

Be a celebrity.

Ugggh.

I want to do stuff in the spotlight but I detest the publicity.

So fake a 'brand', so to speak.

Wear a mask. Construct a persona.

And divorce it from your personal life.

There's a reason Black Velvet focuses on such products.

Huh?

"Change your hair, your face, your body as needed and work under a Psuedonym.".

The finalized work on the TV show can still be changed from the first runs and magic, and all.

My point is.

Enjoy yourself, gawd.

How do you live so relaxed.

By regularly changing my personality to keep me from going batshit insane from ennui and the ravages of eternity.

And changing who you are doesn't bother you?

As far as I'm concerned, my memories and a few core traits are important to keep.

Otherwise, I generally see myself as a fraud since I was a kid, so why worry about being 'real'.

Besides, life's about reinventing yourself.

I really wish I could be as carefree as you.

And now you can be for $14.99.

what.

Magical glasses that let you see things through a Noriko-tinted bias.

...

I think that might scar me for life.

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