[Event Post]

[suzakuformation]

::Is sitting at a fountain either around the plaza or in the park, wearing denim cutoff shorts and a light orange tank top.

She's staring at a credit card, an obsidian black one. It reeks of excess and frivilous waste.

As if either what to do with it or to cut it with scissors.::

Comments

[becomeanwarrior]

Suzume?

[Peeking over your shoulder.]

You look like you've got something on your mind.

[suzakuformation]

::Leaps a foot or two to the side, screaming.::

DON'T DO THAT.

[becomeanwarrior]

[Jumps back a foot.]

Ah!? Sorry, jeez!

A-am I really that stealthy, I'm like six feet tall, for pete's sake!

[suzakuformation]

Yes you are! It doesn't matter how tall you are if you're quiet!

[becomeanwarrior]

...I think I'm pretty loud, to be honest...

A-anyway. What's up? You look like you've got some trouble on your mind.

[suzakuformation]

... Sorta kinda, you won't believe me.

[becomeanwarrior]

[Gives you a stare.

A "do you remember what my day job is" stare.]

You'd be surprised what I'm willing to believe.

[suzakuformation]

...

::Pokes you.::

Don't stare like that. Anyways, I'm trying to figure out what to do with myself, and Noriko gave me a limitless credit card to use until I do.

[becomeanwarrior]

...That sounds like Noriko, honestly.

So what's the big issue?

[suzakuformation]

I'll fall into a pit of sin and depravity and endless hedonism.

[becomeanwarrior]

...I mean, yeah, but you eventually crawl out of that.

Speaking from experience.

[suzakuformation]

You don't count.

[becomeanwarrior]

W-Why don't I count!

[suzakuformation]

You never crawled back out.

[becomeanwarrior]

...I crawled out! I don't indulge in excess near as much!

[suzakuformation]

Yeah right.

[becomeanwarrior]

...A-Anyway.

The point I was trying to make is "you don't know what you want unless you let yourself be free to do anything you want." So I think this might be a good change of pace.

[suzakuformation]

::Holds up the card.::

It's also from Noriko and everything with her has underwriting she never tells you.

[becomeanwarrior]

...

The underwriting is "she wants you to discover what you want and be happy", Suzume.

[Blinks visibly.]

[suzakuformation]

"Via having a head that's completely empty"

[becomeanwarrior]

Well, I mean. There's shades of that with her but...

Really. I think she just really wants you to go out and enjoy yourself - and if that means giving you enough money that you don't need to think about your worries, well, that's what she does.

There's nothing underhanded about it. I think I can solidly claim that.

[suzakuformation]

Oh I know she's trying to help me and let me figure myself out but Noriko's always been this two sided angel and devil. I trust the angelic end of her but the demon underneath generally leads to places I'm uncomfortable with.

::Sighs...::

But like with everything in my life, I'm probably overthinking things to avoid doing anything.

[becomeanwarrior]

[He laughs a bit.]

Probably. It might not always be the wisest move, but I think here, you gotta just let yourself go, not think about it, and hope it all turns out alright.

[suzakuformation]

...

I don't know how to 'let myself go'. Living fireball and all.

[becomeanwarrior]

It's... I dunno how to explain it. It's a Bruce Lee style "don't think, feel" thing. Don't turn over the possibilities in your head so much and just do with whatever feels right.

[suzakuformation]

And when everything feels wrong, all the time?

::Dear god she is wound up.::

[becomeanwarrior]

...Stop thinking about it, then. Cause you're thinking about how different it is. You have to get out of the box before you can figure things out.

[suzakuformation]

Get out of the box??

[becomeanwarrior]

You're thinking about things that make you... you. That's your box.

[Draws a box in the air.]

You think things feel wrong because they aren't things you've put in your 'box'.

But your box is so rigid and 'tight' that you don't know things that could fit in the box other than what's in it.

So Noriko's trying to help you get outside your box, so you can find new things, and maybe make a bigger, more different box.

...Does that make sense?

[suzakuformation]

But I like my tiny box!

[becomeanwarrior]

She wants you to have a healthier, bigger box, you don't become less... you, but spending a lot of time outside your box is good!

[suzakuformation]

But I don't want to become an empty headed cloud!