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I have a right to be completely average bland normal as I want! It's my choice if I choose to be completely generic and live an average life and go be a salarywoman at my parent's company!

... Yes, why.

Says the girl who likes to fly around, doing her own stunts, dressing in Magical Girl clothes, and flinging fireballs and doing silly "Friend of Justice" speeches.

God fuck on a damnit cracker.

You lied, so it doesn't count if I enjoyed that stuff.

Suzume.

You are a living demi-goddess of fire at bare minimum, regardless of anything I did to you. Or has happened to you.

But I don't want to be! It's stupid and lame and pathetic and GAH, don't point out Shikou's special or anything, I don't like thinking about it!

Why?

... Because I don't like thinking about:

A) Darkness making me hollow, I DO NOT LIKE REMEMBERING THAT WHOLE MESS.

B) The fact I'll probably outlive the Earth itself.

C) Or that I'm not the original Yamamoto, Suzume of this timeline, and that I killed the mind of the Suzume of this timeline to keep living.

I am super not-okay with a lot of things.

A) Oh. I'd forgotten about that.

B) I've done that several times over, I can confirm it's pretty shitty.

C) ... If it's of any condolences, I'm not sure I'm Wakahisa, Noriko. At least not the original girl who was a rich banking family's daughter. This has come up a few times with people challenging me.

But there's a very good chance if I'm not me myself who was I, I might just be Shin Gren Maju Da Eiza who went mad from the fact so much of its mind was destroyed and gutted by Juudai and his friends.

And with the rest of my mind burned, blasted or destroyed, I was the only recorded data left for it to hang onto, to subsume some sort of identity or else be reduced to a violent animal with no mind.

I might yes, be the same creature that tormented you all. Deluded into thinking it's Wakahisa Noriko operating its mind and body.

A) ... How.

B) ... Please don't mention it.

C) So how do you put up with it? Doesn't that drive you mad, eat away at you, make you feel pangs of guilt and shame or worry?

D) This doesn't absolve you of the fact you made me fight monsters thinking they were rubber suits. ... Why was I fighting monsters that were active threats?!

A) I 'unno, I just chill and forget a lot of things that aren't worth angsting over.

C) Oh, it does completely, it's very unnerving and frankly, if I ever get too worried I'm just a puppet for Da Eiza, a fake, I will end my own existence for everyone else's safety.

My point is, we might both be fakes, or impostors, but, we're apparently so good of fakes, we might as well be the real thing. And I'm not sure anyone who actually knows us, or those we might be impersonating, care.

C) ... You're good at fire and I figured might get in some spontaneous action sequences.

You are after all, as far as I know, the Miko of the Obsidian Lord, much like Shiroko is the Thief of the Obsidian Lord.

A) ...

C) But we're still frauds.

D) Me and Shiroko are who in the what now.

C) If the fraud is the same thing as the original, except it isn't the original, does it matter?

If you're obsessed with this, there are ways to go about handling it and I can make it glaringly uncomfortable, Suzume.

I want you and Shikou to be happy.

D) Do you really think the HiMEs aren't meant to serve various roles for his Eternal Lordship? You are his Shaman, his Shrine Maiden.

Shiroko is the princess who exists to bring him whatever his heart desires. So basically a thief.

C) Being happy for me is never acknowledging any of this.

D) ... Where are you getting any of this.

C) And what, being a Salarywoman?

D) That's. A. Sec. Ret.

... It would be preferable, besides, my parents are kind of expecting me to do SOMETHING with my life besides be a security guard.

So what do you want to do?

Huh?

What do you, Yamamoto Suzume, want to do with your life?

I... don't know.

Okay then.

I'm giving you a limitless credit card and you're now ordered to take a vacation for a week while I handle business before we do the finale properly.

And then you're taking ANOTHER VACATION.

W-wha!?

I am not letting my platonic brother's girlfriend go insane.

You are taking this credit card, blowing money, and enjoying yourself and figuring out who the fuck you want to be, Missy.

Or else I'm going to shake you.

But...!

No buts. Now get going and relax.

I have business to attend to.

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