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[suzakuformation]

Great, boss said he'll probably have to lay me off due to the shoulder injury since I won't be able to carry food for a while that well.

Parents wondered what the hell I got into.

And I think I have a stalker.

Comments

[3-s33s-what.livejournal.com]

... Ngh, that don't sound good. What, they don't give ya time t' recover from somethin'?

... Stalker?

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

They want me to recover, but they're concerned if it takes more than a week, I'll be dead weight.

Yeah. I got a letter from a "John S." offering me something. It was rather detailed.

[3-s33s-what.livejournal.com]

Oh, che. Sounds nasty.

... Detailed? What?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... "John S.", mm?

I personally think you should toss the letter, Suzume.

The fallen angel, Asmodeus, who is using the alias of "John Striborg", has been going around.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

It was nasty. Fucking Worm.

Oh, some bullshit offer of giving me what I wanted, because I'm unhappy, blah blah.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

I should... but... I hate this sort of thing yet... You ever have your heartstrings tugged so hard you can't ignore what pulled them?

[3-s33s-what.livejournal.com]

Yeaah, bunch 'f dicks, 'll say.

Sounds like total bs t' me.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... I guess. But I think it's more imperative that you do stay away from his offers.

Since he's already threatened me to drive you back into insanity. Quite forwardly, too.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

Pretty much.

Yeah. Still...

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... i see.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... If he sends you more letters, or tries to do anything to you, tell me. Please?

[3-s33s-what.livejournal.com]

... Th' hell are they exactly tryin' t' offer ya, anyway?

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... I'll think about it. ... I'm jealous, though. Completely and utterly jealous.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... Jealous?

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

Jealous. Utterly utterly jealous... of her.

[Private to Sanshi]

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... To break up my ex-boyfriend and his current girlfriend.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... I'm sorry. That you are.

... I take it that the letter... Concerns her, doesn't it.

Re: [Private to Sanshi]

[3-s33s-what.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah, that's th' kinda stuff y'stay 'way from, with offers.

Just makes folks hate ya an' y'have t' sell y'soul at some point an' y'more likely t' become an axe murderer.

[Private to Shikou]

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... I hate her. She's stupid. She's lazy. She's fat. She's so plain. She doesn't love you like I do. She has no backbone, no will, no grace. I hate everything about her... I hate she stole you away from me, your Majesty.

... Yes. He says he'll let me get you back and get do anything to her to put her out of the picture. I'm sorely... sorely... tempted to approve of it.

Re: [Private to Sanshi]

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... I want him back though... You ever have something so close yet so far that you can almost scream at the fact you can't grab it...?

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... He probably offered it, you realize, to push us over the edge. Not out of any genuine concern or charity to you, but because he knows what will happen, if you accept it.

His ultimate goal is not one that I know of, but I know what he's threatened.

He wants me to be the Obsidian Lord. He wants to drive you insane-- to that point where I found there was no other option, but to leave you, for your own sake. He wants Shiroko to be nothing-- a lazy, unmotivationless, idiotic girl.

It makes me sick.

Re: [Private to Sanshi]

[3-s33s-what.livejournal.com]

Then why not try t' grab 'im f'y'self an' actually, I dunno. Fight 'er f' 'im?

I mean, that'll prob'ly be at least less 'f a turn-off than havin' some guy who sends ya random as 'ell letters off 'er.

I mean, I get th' feelin' 'f that. 've actually 'xperienced it more times than y'think. But a lot 'f what follows tends t' make me... Kinda nauseous t' be blunt.

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... I want her to be anything other than she is, so you'll pay attention to me. I don't care if she's lazy and stupid... I did that for you, not her. Me. I... I... hate being thrown away... after that......

Anything... anything... and what was wrong with being him...?

Re: [Private to Sanshi]

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

He's with another girl... Urrrrgh... ... Nausea?

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... I did not mind the confidence. I didn't mind the power. I didn't even mind the cunning, the passion.

... But I did mind the fact that I would have so easily killed everyone else, including you, if it came right down to it. I mind the fact that... We killed billions. Billions of people, just to reset everything. I cared nothing for those who weren't useful to me, and I was afraid of every little step I took, wondering, "who will try to kill me next?"

And yet things come up, that make me wish I had truly gone through with the whole festival. That I had changed everything. But no-- that's only for those with idle thoughts.

If he wants me to embrace what I've done, then fine. He will gain what results from that. Namely, a sword through his head, for trying to push me, to make me throw everyone away, instead.

If you want me to toss you away, then accept his letter. I will be willing to do so in the blink of an eye-- after all, that is what the Obsidian Lord would do. If my Queen-- my only Queen, wants to give into her jealousy and spite once more, then so be it. I'll strike down who is necessary for the insult.

But if you want to prove yourself to me instead, to try to sway my thoughts within your own power, that you're more than just a jealous girl who would do anything to spoil others within that area of affection, then throw it away and reject it, yourself.